How I think about MONEY as ENERGY, and have been limiting myself and only thinking about MONEY AS CURRENCY.

This week has been life altering. I am standing in the now and my emerging future that I want and desire for myself, is right here in front of me, and is my new reality!

I had an experience the other day that was so profound to me. I am "test diving" this new way I am moving through my world.

I am changing many things in my life right now, and one of them is getting new glasses. Yes, glasses that make me more visible - more bold and that are matching who I am...a DA, ME!!! How exciting is that for me to BE ME!!!

So let me talk about the eye examination. I have had lots of "fear" around going to the optometrist - it shows because I haven't had new glasses since over four years ago. Somehow, I knew that things weren't right and that I would have to reveal to myself that something was not working in my life. What a metaphor for how I was living my life!

I walked through the "fear" this week, which I must say I have been putting off, and another "test drive" experience that I don't live in the allopathic world anymore - yet, I do stand in this new paradigm and look over to see if any information that is offered that may be useful to me - I listen and then take action. So what do I mean by this, it was useful for me to have that eye examination even though I believe that it is another layer of information for me that is right out in front of my awareness. So let's go back to the eye examination...

What I found useful is that my health of my eyes are good. Also, what I did find useful is that I have "pressure" behind my left eye that the machine picked up by the assistant who did the first part of my examination. Once the optometrist thoroughly examined my eyes, he was concerned about the "pressure" in the back of the right eye. He asked me if I had any "trauma" to my right eye. My reply, "I am from a family of twelve, so who knows?"

Then he asked if I was on any medication. And my reply was, "no". What did resonate with me later when I got home was the two years that I was on "insulin". I wonder if that has had any effect on the health of my right eye?

At the end of the examination, he talked about how usually the machine will read higher and that from his examination he doesn't have any major concerns. He does want me to come back in a year to have another examination as signs of a '''cataract" are forming. He did comment on how unusual this is to be developing at my young.

Lots of information for me...not that I need to be in "fear" yet this is something useful for me to be more aware of. Pay attention to. So, I turn my thinking into not the "allopathic" way but I new thinking of, "Hmm, where am I experiencing 'pressure' in my life". This is not good, bad, right or wrong yet very useful information for me to ponder, find space to let it rumble in me...

I want to go back, this is not BAD and that I don't need to fear this information. Actually, I am finding it great information for me because it is allowing me to think about, "where do I need to be more awake?" "Where am I experiencing 'pressure' in my life?"

I am noticing that many things are amazing in my life and that I do have this "pressure" that I need to bring into my awareness.

Ah HA - quickly the answer has come to me - "How I think about money as energy, and how I have been limiting myself and think about money as only currency".

OH Man, do the lessons ever become harder and faster for me, layer after layer of not paying attention...

do you,
trust yourself?

breathing in is important right now for me...